"These are little scraps of magic & when you paste them together you get a memory of something fine & strong" ~Storypeople
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Today's Gratitudes
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
The Gratefulness Project
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Recommitting to the Commitment
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Message to Muslims: I’m Sorry
Message to Muslims: I’m Sorry
By NICHOLAS D. KRISTOF
Many Americans have suggested that more moderate Muslims should stand up to extremists, speak out for tolerance, and apologize for sins committed by their brethren.
That’s reasonable advice, and as a moderate myself, I’m going to take it. (Throat clearing.) I hereby apologize to Muslims for the wave of bigotry and simple nuttiness that has lately been directed at you. The venom on the airwaves, equating Muslims with terrorists, should embarrass us more than you. Muslims are one of the last minorities in the United States that it is still possible to demean openly, and I apologize for the slurs.
I’m inspired by another journalistic apology. The Portland Press Herald in Maine published an innocuous front-page article and photo a week ago about 3,000 local Muslims praying together to mark the end of Ramadan. Readers were upset, because publication coincided with the ninth anniversary of 9/11, and they deluged the paper with protests.
So the newspaper published a groveling front-page apology for being too respectful of Muslims. “We sincerely apologize,” wrote the editor and publisher, Richard Connor, and he added: “we erred by at least not offering balance to the story and its prominent position on the front page.” As a blog by James Poniewozik of Time paraphrased it: “Sorry for Portraying Muslims as Human.”
I called Mr. Connor, and he seems like a nice guy. Surely his front page isn’t reserved for stories about Bad Muslims, with articles about Good Muslims going inside. Must coverage of law-abiding Muslims be “balanced” by a discussion of Muslim terrorists?
Ah, balance — who can be against that? But should reporting of Pope Benedict’s trip to Britain be “balanced” by a discussion of Catholic terrorists in Ireland? And what about journalism itself?
I interrupt this discussion of peaceful journalism in Maine to provide some “balance.” Journalists can also be terrorists, murderers and rapists. For example, radio journalists in Rwanda promoted genocide.
I apologize to Muslims for another reason. This isn’t about them, but about us. I want to defend Muslims from intolerance, but I also want to defend America against extremists engineering a spasm of religious hatred.
Granted, the reason for the nastiness isn’t hard to understand. Extremist Muslims have led to fear and repugnance toward Islam as a whole. Threats by Muslim crazies just in the last few days forced a Seattle cartoonist, Molly Norris, to go into hiding after she drew a cartoon about Muhammad that went viral.
And then there’s 9/11. When I recently compared today’s prejudice toward Muslims to the historical bigotry toward Catholics, Mormons, Jews and Asian-Americans, many readers protested that it was a false parallel. As one, Carla, put it on my blog: “Catholics and Jews did not come here and kill thousands of people.”
That’s true, but Japanese did attack Pearl Harbor and in the end killed far more Americans than Al Qaeda ever did. Consumed by our fears, we lumped together anyone of Japanese ancestry and rounded them up in internment camps. The threat was real, but so were the hysteria and the overreaction.
Radicals tend to empower radicals, creating a gulf of mutual misunderstanding and anger. Many Americans believe that Osama bin Laden is representative of Muslims, and many Afghans believe that the Rev. Terry Jones (who talked about burning Korans) is representative of Christians.
Many Americans honestly believe that Muslims are prone to violence, but humans are too complicated and diverse to lump into groups that we form invidious conclusions about. We’ve mostly learned that about blacks, Jews and other groups that suffered historic discrimination, but it’s still O.K. to make sweeping statements about “Muslims” as an undifferentiated mass.
In my travels, I’ve seen some of the worst of Islam: theocratic mullahs oppressing people in Iran; girls kept out of school in Afghanistan in the name of religion; girls subjected to genital mutilation in Africa in the name of Islam; warlords in Yemen and Sudan who wield AK-47s and claim to be doing God’s bidding.
But I’ve also seen the exact opposite: Muslim aid workers in Afghanistan who risk their lives to educate girls; a Pakistani imam who shelters rape victims; Muslim leaders who campaign against female genital mutilation and note that it is not really an Islamic practice; Pakistani Muslims who stand up for oppressed Christians and Hindus; and above all, the innumerable Muslim aid workers in Congo, Darfur, Bangladesh and so many other parts of the world who are inspired by the Koran to risk their lives to help others. Those Muslims have helped keep me alive, and they set a standard of compassion, peacefulness and altruism that we should all emulate.
I’m sickened when I hear such gentle souls lumped in with Qaeda terrorists, and when I hear the faith they hold sacred excoriated and mocked. To them and to others smeared, I apologize.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Christi
Thursday, September 16, 2010
FALL!!!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Be Happy
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Because September is a month for GOLD
September is the month of the gold ribbon. September is childhood cancer awareness month.
Did you know that?
46 children are diagnosed with cancer each day in the
Seven children die from cancer every day. Seven.
In the
Did you know that?
I have to be honest, I didn’t.
Not until my brother became one of the 46. And later, one of the seven. Since Manny died, approximately 251,000 children have been diagnosed and 38,000 have died. 251,000 children whose lives have been forever changed. 38,000 children who will never get to blow out birthday candles, or wish on stars, or hug their parents. 38,000 empty spaces at the dinner table, 38,000 dreams undreamt.
Since Manny died, childhood cancer awareness has become a cause which I care about deeply. It’s why I am here today. Once again, asking you for help.
In recognition of this month, of the children lost and those still fighting, my cousin, friends and I are going to be holding on fundraiser on Friday, September 24th at the West 5 Supper Club in
By raising funds and awareness, we can let these families know that they are not alone. Let’s make September a time for action. Because there is simply no more time to wait.
Please join us on Friday, September 24th if you can! There will be open bar, a raffle, and a great time for an amazing cause. I hope to see you there!
As always, thank you so much for all of your amazing support!
With love & hope,
Olivia
PS- If you can't come, but would like to make a donation, please visit my fundraising page at: http://www.active.com/donate/christirun2010 (It's for my October Christi Memorial run but all funds go to KCC too.)
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Leaving on a Jet Plane...
Monday, August 2, 2010
Saying Manny's name
And I am more certain that when I tell them that he died 15 years ago they'll understand that I don't mean I've spent most of my life without a brother, but rather that I've spent most of my life missing my brother and trying endlessly to carry him with me into the world.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Happy 30th Birthday, Manny
listening to crickets at dusk,
big wet kisses & warm bear hugs,
a stuffed monkey named James,
banana milkshakes,
chocolate cake with vanilla frosting,
rolling a 1 every time it's your turn at Clue,
BonJovi's "Always" & Mariah Carey's "Hero",
playing basketball in the backyard after school,
hearing footsteps in the attic late at night,
running out of chocolate covered "critters",
finding the best Christmas tree,
breaking a plate as you set the table,
a mouth full of foamy toothpaste,
decorating the Halloween pumpkin,
walking back from the bus stop,
leaving cookies in the oven for two days,
bandanas & baseball caps,
an old closet door that means something,
simply coming home.
Here's to Manny.
Written by me (~2004)
Friday, July 30, 2010
Running for Christi 2010
As I have done in years past, I will once again be running in memory of Christi this October.
Running has become somewhat of a therapy for me, a refuge of sorts. The last few months have been difficult. Running has helped me deal with some of my stress and sadness. And since I've started these Christi runs four years ago, it's also something that I do very much with Christi in mind (and heart). I carry her spirit with me in this way.
I run for Christi because it's a way I have found to share her name with others, to keep her memory alive in the world, and to thank her. I owe Christi so much. If it hadn't been for her I wouldn't have been so persistent about volunteering at the Ronald McDonald House (and as a result would never have met Ylaria), I would never have gotten to know Jennifer, the founder of Kids Cancer Crusade, or Christi's family who I now count among my dearest friends. I would never have really known what neuroblastoma was or become so passionate about raising awareness of this devastating disease. I would never have found the courage and comfort I have now to talk as openly about my brother. In many ways, Christi brought me closer to Manny. For this most especially, I am incredibly grateful.
All of the money raised in this year's run will be donated to Kids Cancer Crusade, an organization created in honor of Christi. KCC provides a network of much needed support and love for children with cancer and their families. KCC currently serves 111 children and their families. Of the 111, 30 have earned their angel wings. Thirty. All children in treatment (& siblings) receive care packages full of cute hats, clothes and fun games.Parents are sent gas and food gift cards to help them with their expenses while their children are in treatment. Jennifer even accompanies some of the children in her area to their chemo appointments. Through KCC's work, Jennifer is ensuring that Christi is never forgotten. Kids Cancer Crusade is simply an amazing organization that helps bring in the sunshine in some of the darkest moments.
Whatever amount that you give, if anything at all, just know that in giving you are giving a piece of Christi to someone else. Someone who may have never even known her. And in sharing her spirit in this way, she lives on. (You can donate here: http://www.active.com/donate/christirun2010)
To learn more about KCC's amazing work, please visit: http://kidscancercrusade.org/.
Thank you so much for all of your support, it is greatly appreciated!
I love you,
Olivia
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Books
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Numbers
Because, if you're not aware, it's time to be. There is no more time to wait.
That's 46 kids in the picture. They were chosen totally randomly today. We don't know why.
All happy, healthy, athletic, having fun, goofing around, innocent. They will be diagnosed with cancer today. Forty-Six.
And tomorrow. And the day after. All through next week. All month. All year. Ad infinitum.
Until we stop it.
Look again. Totally randomly, pick 7; black, white, boy, girl, 2 years old, 20 years old. It doesn't matter. That's the number of children who will die from cancer today. Seven.
And tomorrow. And the day after. All through next week. All month. All year. Ad infinitum.
Until we stop it.
When you read the statistics, when you see the numbers, NEVER EVER forget that those numbers have NAMES...faces full of love, moms & dads, brothers & sisters, friends & families, hopes & dreams...futures.
Help us stop it. Now.
Join PAC2.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
About an update
But I don't want this to be a depressing update and I don't want to just focus on the sadness here. Because, as we know, in times like these, that doesn't help. We need to verb. So I am training for a 10K run in October to raise funds for Kids Cancer Crusade and I'm lanyarding with my mom to help support the Children's Neuroblastoma Cancer Foundation through Erin's Lanyards. I'm also planning on volunteering at Camp Sunshine this fall/winter. If you're interested in joining me for any or all of these events, please let me know! I'll be sharing more information on the 4th Annual Christi Run soon.
It's all about the verbs really. They are keeping me sane and giving me hope.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Kayla
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Poof!!..Another 365 days
"Life places another year in your hands and poof! You are granted 365 more sunrises, 52 more Sunday afternoons, one big, beautiful year filled with opportunities to eat ice cream, smile for no reason, take a day off, [& see the beauty in the sky]. One more year of the simple, the satisfying experiences that make a life. May it be a good one"
I found this quote on a birthday card I sent my sister one year when I was in college (I added the sky part). I loved it so much that I wrote it down and kept it for myself too. Because it's important to remember to appreciate the "poof!" Life is beautiful and wonderful and awesome and amazing and full. If we let it be. I think I do a pretty good job if loving my life. It can be hard. It can be sad. But the sorrow is what makes us appreciate the joy. The joy is what causes our sorrow. In the words of the great Khalil Gibran,
"Your joy is your sorrow unmasked. And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with our tears. And how else can it be? The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain. Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven? And is not the lute that soothes your spirit the very wood that was hollowed with knives? When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful, look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight."
My heart is full of love. I had the most amazing day. It's nothing I did exactly. It's just the way it was spent-- with people I love, laughing, reading, relaxing, eating chocolate, being, smiling. It was a good day, a great day.
Thank you to everyone for sharing it with me in some way. You are amazing. I am who I am because of you. Because at one point or another our paths crossed and you changed me. Here's to another 365 days of all of the love and laughter and living my heart can hold.
~Olivia
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Today
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Nothing
Friday, May 7, 2010
Congrats, Jennifer
While in high school, Jennifer started Kids Cancer Crusade, a nonprofit organization that helps children with cancer and their families. Jennifer sends care packages to the children, hosts amazing fundraising events and outings for the children and provides a vital network of support for families facing their worst nightmares. If you're looking for a worthy organization to contribute to, Kids Cancer Crusade is certainly worth it. Recently, I hand delivered a KCC package to Ylaria and the smile on her face was priceless.
In addition to her incredibly giving spirit and loving heart, Jennifer is one of my best friends. Jennifer, I honestly don't know without the daily texts, IMing, and girly gossip. Who else understands my OTH obsession?? All kidding aside, I can't tell you how much your friendship has meant to me since we were first "introduced" by Christi. You've helped keep my brother's spirit alive. And you were there to let me cry and remember on so many occasions. I'd be lost without you.
So, congratulations today. I know you'll be one of the most amazing pediatric oncology nurses. Ever.
Just stay clear of those Wal-Mart, psychos, k? (I'm working on my boxing skills, but I'd rather not have to use them.)
Until the next text,
Olivia
Thursday, May 6, 2010
MAY!
1. May means Spring. I love Spring.
2. It's my birthday month!! I can't get into how I am going to be 27 in exactly a week. (Most of the time I still feel like I have the maturity of a 17 year old!) But I love birthdays. And what's a better birthday to honor than your very own!?!?!?!
3. May also holds loads of other awesome birthdays. Christi (May 12), Ylaria (May 14), Lisa (May 24) and Belen (May 29) to name but a few.
4. I am going to Shenandoah on my birthday weekend to spend a few days in the National Park with my awesome, amazing, wonderful friend C. We'll hike, horseback ride, eat cookies, read books and have a generally amazing time.
5. I am participating in a Mother's Day Run on Mother's Day with my mom and sisters to raise funds for babies in medical emergencies. A great cause, good workout and special time with my favorite girls.
That's all for now. More later. I promise! I hope you are doing well and enjoying the sunshine. The sky has been beautiful lately. Don't forget to stop and watch the clouds go by.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
A really awesome update
It looks like Ylaria has responded well to the chemo. She is out of the hospital now and back at the Ronald McDonald House. The doctors still have to scan again to see what exactly is going on with the disease, but she is up and walking with the help of a walker and is no longer complaining of constant leg pain. I have to be honest, I don't really know what this means for her prognosis, but it's been an awesome (and I'll say, miraculous) change from only three weeks ago. For more info, you can visit her website. Thanks so much again for all of your support, I can't tell you how much I appreciate it and how much I love all of you. You are awesome!!
Work is going. We're in our busy season now so I am working a lot. (Can I just say that a 6 day work week is no fun?) Though, I was just told I don't need to come in this Saturday so I am completely excited. I have no idea what I am going to do just yet, but I am trying to think of something!
In one of my last emails, I mentioned Erin's Lanyard project. My mom's school student council (She is a teacher in a middle school) has gotten involved and will be selling lanyards for the rest of the school year to benefit childhood cancer research (specifically, neuroblastoma-- the cancer Erin and Christi had and that Ylaria is currently battling). How awesome is that??? There are also some plans in the works for a bigger event next September. (September is pediatric cancer awareness month). I am making lanyards at home and it is super, super fun. (Well, minus the one time I was finishing one up (ie- tying it up) and ALL of the little clear glass beads fell all over the floor. I was not deterred however, and spent a good hour picking them up and redoing the lanyard. But it's all for a good cause, right? And it taught me patience, not to mention testing my vision. All good.)
And, this is a bit short notice-- I am so sorry, I have been horrible at keeping up with email these days! If you're free tomorrow and want to go to a Happy Hour for a great cause, please see below. (I plan on going so let me know if you can join me! And, no this is not the fundraiser I mentioned in an earlier email. But, you can never have too many happy hours, am I right?) Also, if you want to volunteer or participate in the Walk on Saturday, May 8th, please let me know. I'll be there! :p
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Today's Top Five
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Weekend Update
My weekend went by way too quickly. (This happens most especially when I have to work on Saturday.) Saturday was a busy, busy day from the moment I woke up. (Can I add here that I wake up to my ipod-- I have one of those nifty ipod radio thingys that you can use as an alarm and I wake up to my favorite song "Bloody Nose" by Earlimart. It makes getting up more fun when your favorite tune is playing.)
Friday, April 16, 2010
Kids Cancer Crusade: Get Inspired
I am in the process of putting together some exciting projects to support Kids Cancer Crusade. Once I have more information, I promise to share. :o)
For now, I leave you with some pictures. Jennifer, thank you so much for all that you do. You've brightened so many dark days with your love.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Lanyards (& Manyards)
I can let myself feel the sadness, but at some point, I have to pick myself back up, dry the tears and DO something. As Vickie would put it, I have to verb. What brought on this need for action, you ask?
It started on Friday. I was sitting in my basement watching TV (and possibly eating chocolate) when my mom came down and said, "Olivia, can I ask you about Erin and her lanyards? I think it would be a great project for my student council." It took me a minute. A long minute. "Erin? How did you hear about her and her lanyards?" I asked. And she replied that she had been on my blog and seen the links on the side and decided to click on Erin's link. I was awed. (I had never talked to my mom about Erin.) I looked at my mom and I said, "That is so strange! Today is exactly one year since Erin passed away and you just happened to be on my blog and to click on her site and read about the Lanyard project." And we both stood there and I swear Erin was in that basement with us. And I couldn't help but smile and laugh. It seemed so very "Erin". I was down and she pushed me back up. It was her own special way of saying, "You need to VERB."
I can be mad at neuroblastoma and pediatric cancer in general. I can be sad at the little lives that are lost and the families that are left hurting. I can allow myself to feel that; it's impossible not to. But in the end, I need to verb. I need to act. Because after all, it is through actions that more awareness will be gained, more funds will be raised, and more lives will be saved.
So, this weekend I'll be making my own lanyards. Vickie, I am going to be starting my own Odd Friday Lanyard group. (Even if it is only one person strong.) If you're reading this in the NYC area and you want to join me, please let me know.
Erin and Christi and Sydney and Ylaria and oh so many, many more deserve to have the world know. It's time to act. To verb. There is no more time to wait.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Thank you.
Some of you have kindly listened as I've cried rivers of tears. You've let me cry, let me text you at 1am, understood when I told you I can't talk about it and that I can't let you hug me because I just cry more. I am sorry I haven't responded to your emails and messages yet. It's been a really rocky two days for me. But I'm doing better today. I was finally able to get some sleep last night which has helped.
Thank you for the love, for the space, for the kind words and for all of the hope you've given me. I'd be so very lost without you.
Thank you.
I love you,
Olivia
Monday, April 5, 2010
There are no words for this.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
On Hope.
Monday, March 29, 2010
[insert clever title here]
Monday, March 22, 2010
Where in the World
If you could choose to be born again as a citizen of any country in the world, which country would you choose, and why?
My answer should be obvious. I would want to have been born in Northern Ireland. I think it would have been fascinating to have lived in Northern Ireland during that time. Belfast, obviously. And then I would also have the benefit of EU citizenship (well, I technically have that already with my Spanish passport). And to boot, I would also have an amaaaaaaaazing accent.
I'd still want my parents to be where they are from (Spain and Cuba) but I would have loved to have been born in Belfast. And yes, I've actually thought this out before.
Your turn!
Friday, March 19, 2010
Food Matters
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Kayla
My sister asked me last night to update my blog. She claims people actually want to read about me and my happenings on a more regular basis. I am not entirely sure that I believe her, but her request did make me think about what I would choose to write about when I posted my next entry. And, I decided that I could really only write about one thing. Kayla.
I was first introduced to Kayla through Christi and Kids Cancer Crusade. Kayla is an amazing young girl from Tiffin, OH. She was diagnosed with a DIPG brain tumor in the summer of 2005 when she was only 5 years old. At the time, doctors gave her a 10% chance of surviving 9 months. Through faith and grace, Kayla thrived for 4 1/2 years, largely symptom free. In January, Kayla's condition worsened and it was discovered that another tumor is growing. She is once again in the fight for her life.
I was fortunate enough to meet Kayla and her family when I was in Ohio for a friend's wedding in July 2007. They are truly inspirational and their friendship has meant so much to me through the years. If you have a moment today, please visit Kayla's site and let her family know they are not alone.
Kayla, I am thinking of and praying for you. You are a light for so many. May you feel the warmth of our love for you now.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
North Carolina Love
1. My friends. I have amazing friends. While in Durham, I got the chance to catch up with some good friends from Dartmouth (Thanks, Kim, Katie, Krystal and Carolina!) It was so nice to be able to spend so much time with such special people who know how to make me laugh and who make everything from car rides to science museums more fun simply by being there to share them. I also got to spend time with some new friends as well. I "met" Kristen, over at One Safe Place for the first time in person last Friday. I started following her blog when I saw it on Jennifer's blog list and I was hooked. Kristen is one of those people that actually lives the words "be the change you want to see in the world". She introduced me to Learning to Love You More, a website with fun, interesting and, at times, deeply personal projects that help you to discover more about your Self. So, here's my first gift to you from North Carolina: One Safe Place. Visit, if you can, I promise you'll be inspired. (OSP counts because Kristen is currently residing in NC).
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Gratefulness
I have come to realize, rather recently, that the power I want is the power to be happy. And, even more recently, I realized that happiness is really just about being grateful. It's about being grateful for waking up, and beautiful skies and nerdy books and amazing family and wonderful friends. I am rarely conscious of how grateful I am. As a friend shared, "If your just replace the word "happy" with "grateful"..., it can really make a difference. 'I'm grateful to see you!','I'm grateful to be here!', Or how about simply 'I'm grateful.'" Words of wisdom. Gratefulness. It brings everything into perspective. Another friend of mine and I have begun a mini gratefulness project. We text each other daily and share three things for which we are grateful. I have been grateful to everything from my mom, to my sisters, to my friends, to my books to my warm bed to my plans to my healing.
The other day, a friend of mine shared this link with me: and I fell in love with gratefulness. Head over heels. Please take a moment to listen to it. I try to listen to this in the morning. It's a reminder of how I need to be grateful for waking up. For the sky. For the moment.
So, today, I want you to know that I am grateful for you. So very grateful.